“If we look at this man’s behaviors without knowing anything about his past, we might think he was mad. However, with a little history, we can see that his actions were a brilliant attempt to resolve a deep emotional scar. His re-enactment took him to the very edge, again and again, until he was finally able to free himself from the overwhelming nightmare of war". Peter Levine
Some people who were abused as children do not remember what happened to them. This is because defense mechanisms initially protected them, to "keep under key" the whole painful and embarrassing experience in a "safe place". Defense mechanisms such as denial may prevent certain memories that are so emotionally charged, so the person can try to continue in their lives andact as if the abuse had not happened. It is not that the person forgot; it is that the person is acting as if it never happened. This is the way to survive his tragedy, to achieve "equilibrium" and to avoid conflict. These defense mechanisms are very important for human beings and psychological survival, but as time passes, this way of living can become an impediment to healing. Other people remember vaguely some experiences or feelings, but they are not clear whether or not the memory is reality or a product of his imagination. Others, even remembering what they lived, they experience it as something inconsequential. They say: "It was just one time", "It was not so serious", or "Maybe I'm making it up." The horror and confusion of knowing that was trueis so large, they tend to minimize what happened in order to continue to survive. There are others who remember well the abuse they were subjected to as children. Constantly reliving many of the emotions experienced in childhood: insecurity, helplessness, vulnerability, anxiety, distress, confusion, loneliness, etc. They may also have difficulty sleeping and often have nightmares. These memories do nothing more than open a wound that has never healed. A wound that seeks to be treated. And there is a constant internal struggle that needs to be addressed. If you are in any of these situations, seek psychological help. Time may soften the trauma a bit but not cure your problem.
Child sexual abuse consists of attitudes and behaviors of an adult (usually male, but also female), done for his or her own sexual satisfaction, with a minor. Sexual abuse is widespread. We can talk about anal, vaginal and oral penetration or verbal propositions, explicit or implied, and exhibitionism. Child abuse includes any form of physical contact, with violence or intimidation and without consent. The abuser uses emotional manipulation, blackmail, deceit, threats, violence, or seduction to make the child do what he/she wants. It is important to consider that a behavior is abusive when it is lived and experienced in this way by the person. And we must be clear about one thing: the victim is never guilty. The adult perpetrator is always responsible.
For many people, revealing that they were victims of sexual abuse or incest is not easy. And for a man, often it is even more difficult because of prejudices and beliefs that exist even today, in society. They may say, "If you were abused by a man, you're gay", "If you were abused, you will do the same with other children", "Men do not cry; if you cry you're a sissy". These doubts and beliefs may lead the adult victim to have intense moments of pain, anxiety, guilt and shame about their sexuality. Often these feelings and emotions can lead them to harmthemselves, have suicidal thoughts or have addiction problems. You can find more information about symptoms in the article "Revealing Secrets". (Link to this article) Remember that a person’s sexual orientation has nothing to do with being sexually abused or not. Gay people are gay not because they were abused. They're gay because it is their sexualorientation. In fact, most men who molest other children are heterosexual and most children who survive sexual abuse are, too. Moreover, not all people who abuse children have been abused as children. Nor are all the people who have been abused as children recreating what happened to them, as children. Remember that the person who sexually abuses a child does not do it for sexual satisfaction; they do it to feel that they can control, humiliate and have power over another person.
When a child is repeatedly the victim of abuse, when no one defends him, when he tries to protect himself and is punished, when her needs and emotions are ignored, when experiencing a situation of pain, stress and extreme frustration, the child enters into a state of depression and anxiety, permanently. In parallel, to survive, she may learn to enter into a state of resignation and hopelessness and this can turn into a life pattern, if she does not receive counseling. Many times, this life pattern can lead to the person not seeking psychological help. Living in a constant state of pain and threat, helplessness and frustration causes much suffering to the little child. He begins to think, "I cannot change this; no one can help me", and little bylittle, he starts to give up. He does not defend himself; his nervous system shuts down and his emotions become frozen; his body contracts. The little one is no longer himself. If you were abused, you know that the implication of this fact does not finish when the abuse ended. This is a heinous and inhuman act that breaks the personal, emotional, sexual and energylimits of the little one. This causes deep wounds that leave scars physical, emotional, spiritual and psychological and cause a number of symptoms. However, these symptoms may be the seedsto initiate the recovery process. In therapy, you can rescue "that little girl" that remained frozen, so she can return to live, breath and regain control of her life.
When a sexually abused person has a partner, the dynamics of the relationship is affected, positively or negatively, depending on whether or not the victim maintains the secret of the incident. The relationship can also be affected depending of the support they receive from their partner. Depending on the route he/she takes, it is possible to move forward together, stronger as a couple and as a person. On the other hand, the relationship can be seriously affected if they decide not to work on processing traumatic events and this will affect their relationship. It is essential that both partners receive psychological help because for a person to know that their partner or loved one was abused, as a child can be overwhelming. This news may create tension in their relationship. For some people, finding out about this is so stressful that they prefer not to hear or to leave, because for them to imagine a small child, helpless in that horrible situation, generates, anger, confusion, bitterness, sadness, frustration, etc. and they are not able to bear it. It is not that they don’t want to; it is jut that it is too much for the system to digest; they have trouble accepting that the person they chose to share their life with went through this experience and now are having symptoms, due to the trauma. The important thing now is that you understand that even though the abuse happened many years ago, the consequences of the abuse on the physical, mental and emotional level are still there.A person who has been abused as a child: (a) has a number of behaviors and symptoms that may seem inexplicable to their partner, especially when they re-experience those memories thatparalyzed, confused and distressed them. If a partner does not know that these symptoms are normal, that there is a reason to have them, and that there is a way to help the loved one get through this time, the relationship may begin to suffer. The person may believe that he did something wrong or that he is against his partner and end up feeling abandoned and not taken into account. So the couple and the relationship will suffer. The most important thing you can do for your partner is: educate yourself about the consequences of being sexually abused; attend therapy so you can work on the emotional conflicts you may be experiencing; "learn to be there"; listen to and respect her need for silence; respect her/his healing process. A survivor of sexual abuse needs a partner that is predictable, consistent, loyal and trustworthy. The abuse was just something that happened to your partner and is only one aspect of them; it is not who she is.
Am I Normal?
If you suffered from child molestation
I am terribly sorry.
Sexual abuse, physical, emotional, violence and lack of protection, cause one of the MOST DEVASTATING tRAumAs in a CHILD.
It has been stated that “when a child's innocence is stolen through sexual abuse, it affects self-worth, personality development, socialization and achievement. It can later impact intimacy in their adolescent and adult relationships. Sexual trauma is a sacred wound. It is an intrusion into a child’s deepest, most delicate and private parts”.
As a consequence, some people, naturally, find it hard to trust again because they live a trauma caused by another human being, especially if the one who hurt you, was supposed to take care of you.
Each person is unique but often, after an abuse, you can start to present some or all of these symptoms:
depression, phobias, anxiety, psychosomatic problems, and intrusive images of abuse. There are also fears, terrors and insomnia. You can also have difficulty regulating your emotions: for instance, you can feel “flooded", overwhelmed by them or you can feel anesthetized, numb. Like you walk through life without feelings or are disconnected from your body.
All these symptoms, even if they feel bad, are noRMal to have, because WHAT YOU LIVED WAS NOT NORMAL.
It may also happen that you feel anger, have difficulty relating to other people, socially and sexually, because you are afraid of intimacy. You can also start hating your body, feel dirty, devalued, experience low self-esteem, shame, confusion, guilt and hyper-vigilance.
Some people may have self-aggressive behavior: engage in mutilation with cuts, burns or they can make suicide attempts or commit suicide. This is seen as a way to silence and alleviate the whole whirlwind of emotions and sensations inside. The person may begin addictive behaviors as a way to calm them self.
People who have been abused as children frequently ask "Am I nORrmAl”, since I have all these symptoms. And there is one thing you must have clear:
you are NORMAL. You have developed normal symptoms in response to another person’s abnormal behaviour.
Many people have never spoken of the abuse they experienced and they go through life PRETENDING IT NEVER HAPPENED.
There is nothing more confusing and exhausting than pretending that you had an abuse free life when you experience so many symptoms. This happens to many adults who were abused as children.
When your mind and emotions race inside you, and you don't understand why you feel what you feel, or you can't change how you are feeling, it's frustrating. Remember one thing: These symptoms are reactions to the things you've experienced.
As Dr. Vessel Ban Der Kolk mention “Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort. Their bodies are constantly bombarded by visceral warning signs, and, in an attempt to control these processes, they often become expert at ignoring their gut feelings and in numbing awareness of what is played out inside. They learn to hide from their selves.”
It is important to seek help. You've been through a traumatic experience and it is DIFFICULT TO HEAL ALONE. As they say, you CAN'T DO IT ALONE , but nobody CAN DO IT FOR YOU.
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